i survived my last day at work! haha. felt so sian the whole day. everyone out partying during the last day of the year and there i was.. stuck at work. oh well. its over. i got a free log cake!(worth $40) crunchy hazelnut summore. wohoo! more calories!

i dunno y i'm making an effort to come up with a new year's resolution when i noe that i wun follow them. i never did and dont think i ever will. to me, NY's resolution is something i WANT but (usually) CANNOT get. haha.

who can guess my number one resolution? i've been wishing for this since i was in kindergarden.
so freaking easy. omg. i dun even have to say it.

1) LOSE WEIGHT! make sense. HAHA. ok. i plan to lose 8kg in 2009. i lost 4-5kg in 2008 (from 2007) so little. toot sia. if i remember correctly, i wanted to lose 10kg. so stupid. half only. told u i dun keep my resolutions. this is a perfect example. I AM SO FAT!

2) FOCUS ON MY STUDIES! this is something i havent done for 2 months and its gonna be hard to start over. 2009 is a very crucial year for the education part of my life. i cant afford to stray (like i AM during the holidays.). i aim to get a good scholarship in something i like and leave Singapore. yes. i'm an unloyal bitch.

3) SAVE MONEY! a lot of the horoscope thingy have predicted that i will run into a lot of financial problems in 2009. oh yes i will if i continue spending the way i'm doing now. i've come up with an accounts/diet book where i have to save a minimum $3 a day (why $3? cuz if u multiply by 365 days, it'll add up to more than $1000). the diet part is where i will have to weigh myself everyday and record every single thing i eat so i can keep track on my calories. HAHA. lets see how long it will last. i'd be happie if it can last for 1 week. -_-"

4) LOVE MY FAMILY, FRIENDS AND MYSELF! especially the myself part. oh god. plz help me accept ME. i'm my biggest critisizer. i dunno y i hate myself so much. it didnt use to be like this. plz help me be less concious about myself. help me accept who i really am and help me understand that everyone is unique and no one is perfect. and god, please help me be patient with my friends and family. help me accept them for who they are and to treat everyone fairly. there're many people whom i wish to start afresh with so please give me the courage and endurance to do so. and please bless them with good health, happiness and wealth!

these are all i ask for in 2009. nothing much realli. i'd be content if i can accomplish them. please please please give me the perserverance and strength to do so. i realli need it (i'm not exactly the strongest and most patient person on earth. HAHA.) oh well. i hope the new year will be blessed with many happy moments.

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