when will i get to wear these?
i'm getting super frustrated over my weight issues. i try to forget them but as much as i do, it keeps haunting me. like everyday, every hour, every minute and every second.
i'd rather die of thin than die of fat.
sometimes i hate myself for not accepting me for who i am. but i noe i can change that. i noe i can be slim. but its soooo hard. sometimes, i just wanna give up.
it sucks when u have to give up most of your favourite food and eat those eeky so called 'healthy' food. it's not nice. and i hate it. but what choice do i have.? and i do exercise! i nv take the lift anymore. and i walk from pasir ris int to my hm (which is abt 20 mins if i walk fast). if i dun do it, i'll nv be thin. and when other girls recall their teenage years, they can say to their children...
"hey, i used to wear that dress"
but for me, i'll just say "i've nv worn a dress". WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
i'm making myself feel worst. haha. please dun comfort me. i'll be ok after 5 mins. i swear. haha. just have to let it all out.
lurrve!
PS: at the rate i'm keeping up with this, i shud just publish a novel on the life of a fat teenager.