Simplicity.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

the previous post was so depressing so i deleted it. i dunno y i cant delete the whole post. the internet error thing will pop out. haha. yesterday i felt so emo due to various reasons. haix. but i'm ok after a good nite's sleep. :)

read it if u have time. its so true. (my PW group will happily vouch its reliability. jk jk)

ARIES TRAITS:

LIKES
Action
Coming in first
Challenges
Championing Causes
Spontaneity

DISLIKES
Waiting Around
Admitting Failure
No opposition
Tyranny
Other peoples advice

The spring equinox, March 21, is the beginning of the new zodiacal year and Aries, the first sign, is therefore that of new beginnings. The young ram is adventurous, ambitious, impulsive, enthusiastic and full of energy. The Arian is a pioneer both in thought and action, very open to new ideas and a lover of freedom. They welcome challenges and will not be diverted from their purpose except by their own impatience, which will surface if they don't get quick results.
Aries subjects are courageous leaders with a genuine concern for those they command, being responsible people, it is rare that they will use their subordinates to obtain their own objectives as leaders, BUT occasionally it does happen. ~~They do not make very good followers because they are too "take charge".~~ They may be ~~unwilling to obey or submit to directions for which they can see no reason, or with which they disagree.~~ They are much concerned with self, both positively and negatively - self-reliant but also self centered (sometimes) and concerned with their own personal advancement and physical satisfaction. Their immense energy makes them aggressive and restless, argumentative occasionally, headstrong, quick tempered, easily offended and capable of holding grudges if they feel themselves affronted.

As the first sign in the zodiac, you, as an Arian (as you are referred to), is to simply "get something started and lead the way". The Sun in this zodiac position gives your will free rein to express itself. You could be doing this in the form of some leadership role, or by forcing others to look at themselves in a new way. You can accomplish this by knowingly carrying out a deliberate act in the name of some cause that moves you. A negative effect of this sun sign is that you could sometimes unknowingly make it hard for others to relate to you, as you really are.

In your personal relationships Arians are frank, direct and candid, and make enthusiastic and generous friends. You are liable to have a ~~high sex drive~~ and make passionate but fastidious lovers. There is, however, a negative side to your associations with other people. You can easily be irritated by slowness or moderation in your companions and, though yourselves sensitive, ride roughshod over the sensitivities of others. ~~The intensity of your sexual urges can drive you to promiscuity and a Don Juan-like counting of conquests of the opposite sex.~~ It can also trick you into early unwise marriage which may end disastrously. Arians are highly devoted to their children, even to the point of laying down their own lives, so that they might live. You will not find a more defensive and loving parent in all the zodiac.

It is preferable to be aware of your pioneering spirit and not disregard it. For in acknowledging it you not only enjoy life more, but you avoid being pushed around by others. Your nature is usually push or be pushed, with little middle ground. This can at times be objectionable to others, but you must have the freedom to act, rather then just thinking about it, getting pent-up in the process. At all costs you need to avoid negative emotions such as resentment, regret and self-pity, for they would deny you what is essential to your nature: straightforwardness.

Mentally Arians are intellectual and objective, but can be in rare situations bigoted and extremist in religion and politics. They are good champions of lost causes and last-ditch resistance. They are quick-witted but sometimes foolhardy and over optimistic, lacking thoroughness and the ability to evaluate difficulties in the undertakings into which they often rush impulsively. The great need of Aries natives is to exercise an iron self-control, to discipline the qualities and tendencies of their character to the advantage, not the detriment, of the society in which they move.

You make good athletes (ehem!) and climbers, doctors, explorers (of new ideas as well as uncharted territory, the latter in these days including adventuring into outer space), ~~soldiers, sailors and airmen,~~ and leaders, though awkward subordinates, in industry and politics.

lurrve!

ps: now u noe y i'm always so overly emotional. HAHA.

♥ 6:36 PM

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♥ 4:50 AM

Thursday, November 27, 2008

after dayS of PURE SLACKING, i finally did something useful yesterday.

I STUDIED MATHS for abt 2hrs! yay yay yay yay yay yay. so proud of myself. HAHA.
maths holiday revision:
graphing techniques
functions
partial fractions
linear equations
inequalities

NOTE: i DID NOT finish all of them in the 2hrs. if i did, i'll be superwoman. i am so ~~dreading~~ differentiation and integration!!!

i've been working 4 days a week. its cool. made some new friends/collegues. they're fun; full of crap. now i noe what its like to be matchmade EVERYDAY. haha.

today got kenduri arwah. means a prayer gathering for the dead/deceased. my weekends full ppl. tired tired tired.

tmr: work + cousin nikah
sat: cousin's wedding
sun: work + cousin's wedding at guys side.

i've got to go. got some relatives from KL wanna come stay at my hse. SO LECEH!

lurrve!

♥ 6:22 AM

Sunday, November 23, 2008

in a very katy perry mood. gosh i love her so much.

love her BIG BIG eyes.
love her controversial lyrics.
love her style.!

i shall dedicate one post specially for her soon. haha.
oh. i really killed a beetle. it was VERY HUGE! and its wings kept making funny noises.

to all who thinks i'm an insect murderer. no i am not. i just dun like insects. they give me a very funny/tickelish feeling. ewwwwwww.

lurrve!

♥ 5:46 AM

i shall not be affected by it.. i shall TRY not to be affected by it.

ok...

I AM AFFECTED BY IT.

sheesh. i wanna play for alumni band. the more i talk to my friends, the more i want to but...

I CANT! get it? i havent played for so long. its not like i was a pro to start off. i mean, me being SL was one of the very very few lucky moments of my life.

i wanna go back. but somethings stopping me. ARGHHHH. aiyaa.

dun go back la. dun go back.

FINAL.
DONT GO BACK.!!!!!

♥ 5:27 AM

Thursday, November 20, 2008

I AM SO TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH BALLROOM SHOES. (and its all thanks to vanessa hudgens!! grrr!! that girl has a strong influence on me. but NO. I AM NOT GOING TO TAKE NAKED PHOTOS OF MYSELF. THANK U V MUCH!)

pretty rite? OMG OMG OMG. i'm super obssessed with these shoes. i have to get one. and it doesnt matter if its dancing shoes or bowling shoes or basketball shoes.I HAVE TO GET THESE!! i just want to look at them. haha. dun think i can walk in them yet. getting a lot of training from my wedges. SO PRETTYYYYYYY!!

actually it doesnt matter what the pattern is. i just one a shoe which back looks like this...

haha. havent even get pay check wanna buy so many things. by the time 2009 ends, my bank acct back to its original amt. which is......... not very much. HAHA. oh gosh. i got to curb my shopping habits!

I LOVE SHOESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

lurrve!

♥ 7:50 AM

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

this is one my my favourite song from my darling david archuleta's album. its called "my hands" from his debut album "David Archuleta" (-___-") I WANNA BUY!!!!!!! so cute bodo. his lastest single "touch my hand" is also v nice. haha. he got a lot of hand action ar. hehehe.

HOT GUY ALERT!

THE GUY ON THE RIGHT IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOT! i'm super in love with him sia. OMG OMG OMG! so handsome. *MELTZ*
(THEY ARE SO FARNIE!)

just nice eh. kill two birds with one stone. the song is david's new single and the guy who's lipsyncing it is SUPER HOT!!! i cant seem to stop watching it.

ok. got to go watch again!

lurrve!

PS: HE IS SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

♥ 7:33 PM

Sunday, November 16, 2008

i started work le. suddenly everything seemed to rewind back to last year. gosh. i can remember so clearly. my first job "interview". i was damn scared (as usual). kiddos to px for giving me the lobang. and also to her mum, who actually brought me to the factory. :)

i was lucky i guess. to be selected not to work in the factory(whose job scope is mainly to pack cakes and cookies) but to work at their cafe. so fun. i was so nervous to meet my boss i didnt wanna go in the shop. but zhafir, being the way he is, just walked to the counter like it was the most normal thing to do and said i wanted an interview. thank god for him. i wud have never gotten the job if not for that. thank u thank u thank u. u r the best. haha.

then i manage to grab hold of Jierong. omigosh. one of the most gentlemenly guys i noe. he is so nice.! GIRLS, THIS IS THE GUY TO GO FOR. haha. jk jk. (imma the matchmaker. haha) so lucky to have him as a collegue even though we dun usually have the chance to work together. i think its one of my boss scheme's not to let us do so. aiyoo. u put me, JR and kenny together ar.... the shop turn the other way around ar. cakes smash everywhere. on the seats.. customers face... ok. i was exaggerating. -_-"

ok. so where is this mysterious place that i'm working at?
its at MONTREUX CAFE. Siglap centre basement 1, beside coldstorage. go go go. maybe can sneak u some food. :x shhh. i'm always so bored. its so ulu. come buy the christmas items. help me sell. so i can get more $$$. hahaha. hope to see u guys soon.

I HAVENT STUDIED!!! ARGHHH!!
stress.

lurrve!

♥ 6:49 AM

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

argh! my back is aching. i just came back from Mendaki after a LONG LONG day.
i've been sitting at the desk in the commuity development unit for 9 freaking hours. omg. but it didnt feel so bad THEN. now i feel the side effects. haha.

volunteering is so fun. especially when the people u volunteer with are so nice. haha. (omg. i'm a sucker. [i'm sucking up. get it?] :x ) but its worth the pain. volunteering rocks. like seriously. when u are done volunteering, u get this feeling of achievement.. like u've done ur part to help people and pay back what u owe... its cool. TRY IT!

gosh. i'm so tired. its gonna be another long day tmr. the cycle repeats.

anw, i found a job oready. at my old work place. i shall elaborate next time.

lurrve!

♥ 3:55 AM

Monday, November 10, 2008

sentosa was FUN! at first i was quite scared that it wudnt turn out well cuz it was raining damn heavily at about 4 or 5am the previous nite. omg. the lightning was blinding and the thunder, deafening. but i was convinced nuthink cud disrupt my royal sleep. haha. but no matter what, i'll nv miss a batch outing for the world.

sometimes i wonder, how i managed to survive 2008 without them... I LOVE THEM LOADS!!!...
what i go through with them i will nv be able to do so with others. the laughter, the fighting to the crying. shit. so emo. but yea. that's just us. no one understands us better than we do. rite? haha.

from the first band competition. (YAY FLAGGIES!)

OIL RIG! so cute sia the helmet!. :)

to our graduation!! hahaha.

we went almost everywhere together.... from meeting b4 sch, after school, when there's no sch. haha. still not sick of each other's faces. and the ppg's. OMG. life was so kecoh with them sia. who can blame us?

It consisted of:
one super fat aunty, over-emotional and perfectionist BLOSSOM
one super thin (and "dark") sensitive, satanic (satanz) and lost BUBBLES
and one super short tomboy, vulgar and lame BUTTERCUP

LOSERS. seriously. HAHAHA.

zouk.

bff's! HAHA. (px, u noe what it means now? -_-") secondary school days were the BEST. EVER!

but "secondary school wasnt meant to last forever...." (sheesh. i'm still in HSM mode. took that off the song "last chance") this is what happens when u put me back with my sec sch friends. PURE LAMENESS.

now that i'm in JC, i met another bunch of super cool people. MY CLASSMATES.

08S26

it was amazing how all of us, who come from v v v different schools and background, manage to bond and love each other. oh, our teachers are amazing too! yay my friends. and yay ME too! haha.

lurrve!

♥ 2:25 AM

Friday, November 7, 2008

i love clothes. but i swear they hate me......... :'(
the pretty one's REFUSE to come in my size. but the 'ah mah' ones seems to be everywhere.

i cant believe i took almost 1.5hrs to dress up this morning. no wait.

this happens every weekend. and yet, after throwing all my clothes on the bed, i'll still have to wear my boring plain jane clothes. (if they are even called clothes)

i cant imagine myself wearning pretty dresses that comes in lace or sleeveless.
neither can i wear those pretty miniskirts and tights.
i cant shop at apparel shops my friends go to and the only place i can shop is patheticly limited...
what? THIS FASHION? some of their clothes dun even fit me.

when will i get to wear these?

i'm getting super frustrated over my weight issues. i try to forget them but as much as i do, it keeps haunting me. like everyday, every hour, every minute and every second.

i'd rather die of thin than die of fat.

sometimes i hate myself for not accepting me for who i am. but i noe i can change that. i noe i can be slim. but its soooo hard. sometimes, i just wanna give up.

it sucks when u have to give up most of your favourite food and eat those eeky so called 'healthy' food. it's not nice. and i hate it. but what choice do i have.? and i do exercise! i nv take the lift anymore. and i walk from pasir ris int to my hm (which is abt 20 mins if i walk fast). if i dun do it, i'll nv be thin. and when other girls recall their teenage years, they can say to their children...

"hey, i used to wear that dress"

but for me, i'll just say "i've nv worn a dress". WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
i'm making myself feel worst. haha. please dun comfort me. i'll be ok after 5 mins. i swear. haha. just have to let it all out.

lurrve!

PS: at the rate i'm keeping up with this, i shud just publish a novel on the life of a fat teenager.

♥ 7:45 PM

its official..

I'M LOOKING FOR A JOB.

anyone that has a job lobang plz tell me. quick. looking for job in the retail/admin area. i dun mind being a customer service consultant, admin staff or even working in the F&B line. fyi, i have experience in F&B. expected salary is >$5/hr. so to anyone who is kind enough, EMPLOY ME!!

gosh. this reminds me of last year. haha. the only thing different is, i'm damn afraid. NOT AFRAID TO CALL THE EMPLOYERS. but damn afraid that i'll slacken in my studies.

honestly, i havent been studying or touching my books recently. and its starting to ~~FREAK ME OUT.~~ seriously! i damn scared that i wun be able to get the scholarship which i have been aiming for. I NEED THE BLARDY SCHOLARSHIP. dammit. this is a disadvantage of being poor. u need others to help u pay for stuff. haix.

but on the other side, if i study like siao during this hols, and in god's will, manage to do well and get what i want, i wun have $$ to spend when i go there. where's there? HAHA. i WUN tell u. later pai seh if cannot qualify.

lurrve!

I NEED A JOB!!!

♥ 7:02 AM

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

yes.. my long awaited project work oral presentation is finally OVER! OH YES!!!!
u noe what this means?

NO MORE GROUP PROJECT!
NO MORE FIGHTING!
NO MORE SCREAMING!
NO MORE CRYING!
NO MORE HEADACHES!
YAY!!!

well, at least those were the cons of group work. but there are some GOOD times which i will nv forget. especially karan. omg. HE IS DAMN FARNIE. no matter how angry i am with him, he always ALWAYS manages to make we laugh. this guy has SKILL. like seriously. haha.

"hey guys, wadsup?"
"relax la imma. y so rude?"
"EH IMMA. LOOK AT MY POWERPOINT SLIDE! GOOD AH?!"
"now i will pass on the time to nitin bhagwan to ..."
"i swear i'll go to c**** and tell her F*** U! SEE I PASS MY M***Y!"
"he's damn weird la. suddenly start scolding me"

OMG! KARAN IS SOOOO CUTE AND FARNIE!!! HAHA.
ok ok. control... my spastic (oops!) cerebral palsy son.

no matter how much i hated PW, i'm gonna miss it... somehow.

lurrve!

♥ 12:34 AM

Monday, November 3, 2008

FIZA!!! i think i siao. i'm serious abt it. I WILL COME UP WITH 10 MILLION NAMES for ur 10 MILLION BABIES!! HAha.

and once i'm done, i'm gonna list it all down. HAHAHA. shit. its gonna be longer than written report. HAHAHA. 10 million words. O.M.G. HAHAHAHA

i better start now if i wanna finish b4 christmas.

lurrve!

♥ 4:17 AM

Saturday, November 1, 2008

OMG. LOOK AT MY EYESSSSSSSSSSSS.

ITS GRAY

I LOOK LIKE A FREAKING MINAH NOW! omg omg. i cant believe i'm actually wearning coloured contacts. is it even possible? ME?! OMG. hahahaha. i'm so happie. i dunno what inspired me sia. it just seemed like the most RIGHT thing to do. haha. oh. i bought brown too. but havent try. nvm. i'll keep u guys in suspense for one month ok? hahaha. (sorrie la. i bought monthly. can save $$$). weeeeeeeeeeeeee. COMMENT PEOPLE!.

lurrve!

♥ 11:22 PM

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