my patience is slowing evolving to frustration. haix. so many things are happening and sadly i find it so difficult to catch up. sometimes acting blur is the best solution. haha.

i was quite happie and jovial in the morning even though i had a malay lesson. It was a last minute mock oral for preparation of the real thing in the afternoon. cikgu was quite nice and she gave me a relatively easy topic to talk about. i tot i did quite well then. i read with ease and my fluency for conversation was commendable. but things were very different in the real exam. i must have screwed up big time. its like my brain suddenly froze. i noe it was a make or break situation when i was sitting in the examiners office and sadly, i think it was more on the break side. i kept thinking of english words and my mind dont realli translate well when i'm nervous or stressed up. I USED TWO ENGLISH WORDS when cikgu already said not to use any AT ALL. omg omg. and my points were super shallow. the question was 'is health and education a priority in a person's life' and 'how can u invest in health and education to make it better' or something along that line. omg!!! i panicked man cuz the work that they used i cudnt understand. haha. so i asked the teacher to define the word for me. haix. SCREWED. to think i was quite confident.

anw, college day is also screwed. i dunno y now got so many changes? its like so freaking last minute. and they expect us to do everything. and all the planning i did in the past, i realised that i shudnt have. was a total waste of my time when it isnt at all like my plan anymore? shud have started earlier and saved me all the trouble. i'm super scared i wun get my money back cuz apparently i have met ppl who borrows but dun return- these ppl are like everywhere now. what is the world becoming nowadays?!! i'm SUPER scared. someone plz save me.

lurrve!

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